Such a gloomy day

It's already study week. I finally manage to finish up all my assignment. Well not really. I have the feeling that my grade will not be great this time around. I know I should be studying but somehow I have demotivated. I seriously need help. I don't know what to do. I mean I don't know how to uplift my spirit. I feel so terrible about myself. Last night I had a dream. I dreamed that my mom passed away. I that I called her instantly. Now i feel so guilty for being demotivated. Seriously I do need help. I wonder why people never take me seriously. 

Talking about the gloomy day. I woke up a little too late today. The weather seems so nice for the whole house to sleep in. Cloudy much. I happen to listen to a break up song Shila Amzah-Masih Aku Cinta. It definitely a nice song. I feel related to it in a way. I never had a relationship that were against my family but I do have rather a traumatic relationship. I miss him so much after all he put me through. for the past three years, I am still in love with him. But I know I have to let go. So ya, the song kinda touched me. CLOUDY WEATHER+THE SONG=GLOOMY(EMOTIONAL+LAZY DAY). I have a final test tomorrow so this kind of attitude is not going to help. Just now N.F. came to my room and ask for cendol and laksa utara. so I have to get ready before she comes in for the second time. not much I can share on my boring life so ya. This is going to be it.

MANA HILANG KEKUATAAN?

MANA LARI KEYAKINANA?

MANA PERGI KEPINTARAN?

MANA LENYAP KEANGKUHAN?

MENGAPA TERHIMPIT DENGAN HARAPAN DAN JANGKAAN?

KERANA AKU BUKAN AKU LAGI.

Stupidity~!

So this is going to be my first post on this new blog. Yup! I accidentally deleted my previous blog though there is a way that I could retrieved it but I think it's okay. Besides I think I need to start fresh. Somehow I got inspired today!

As I mention earlier, I accidentally deleted my blog, email and stuffs. I was pretty devastated with my carelessness. In the morning I had a midterm test. Guess what? I screwed it! I didn't study last night because I was so tired doing my shooting assignment. And ya I ate a lot during dinner so I'm kinda full and end up felt so sleepy. I slept. During the test I realized that I need a calculator guess what? I don't have it. BLA BLA BLA BLA. In the afternoon, we had a replacement class. The weather was so wonderful. IT WAS RAINING HEAVILY! I got to class soaked and was late. Damn it! But hey! Class finished early~! Boohooo!!!

After all the not so pleasant day, I decided to go watch a rugby tournament. Yup! So randomly I pop into the car with N.F. and left directly after class. Despite of the weather, I came up at the field with BAJU KURUNG.. So my team have lost the game. But it was a nice game though the reff was being bias. The nicest part was I met a long lost friend.