Climax

Not been able to carry myself properly lately. But I drag my feet around. I went to see Redbull Air Race Putrajaya. It was nice. Thrilling much actually despite of my broken heart. I guess there is no him and no me anymore. I know I have to let it go sometimes. Today was his convocation day. He did not text nor call me at all. Well the other girl is there. I could do nothing about it. I am numb. His mom was the one who texted me. I do not know what to feel actually. I remember crying in the middle of the day. Whatever it is I know I have to give myself a break. I need to focus on myself now.

 Baby if you read this, thank you so much for doing what you have done. I am thankful on each little things. Even though it broke my heart. People don't see what happened to me these past few years. You know well what you have done so I hope you will learn the lesson. I pray that you can learn how to be a responsible man. Honesty is the best policy. I know you that kind of man that will never regret of the things you did. Good for you. I hope you're happy. I mean it. 

I have fallen in love with the air race. I dream of being  pilot myself. There are so much more to life. Now that I see it, I wish I can still make it to do things that I have been holding myself from doing. A friend told me that I am not being realistic. Hey! nothing is impossible.. All I need to do now is to prevent myself to relapse from depression. May Allah with me always. InsyAllah...

xoxo